What is Tantra? 4 things you should know before having a Tantra session.
What is Tantra? 4 things you should know before having a Tantra session.
Black, blue and bleeding But no wounds to see The whole world was fading I just want to be free No one could know All the pain I’ve endured Lets stuff it and numb it Feelings? Don’t be absurd! Now I’m shaking and dizzy Always needing a drink More broken promises Poured down the sink I was numbing the pain of sexual abuse The yelling and fighting Was all an excuse 14 years of this madness What has happened to me Is this how my life is supposed to be? I can never relax and I can’t stay awake My body is screaming How much more can I take? My daughters are teens They’ve depended on me Its their lives at stake Why can’t I see? My life was controlled By no one I knew The navigator was fear And liquor,That’s who Why stick around? My life’s a burden to them I started to see me Creating an end Then came a moment A force, It was calm Then it took me over and started moving my arm By body went limp this force stopped my fight I picked up the phone to call my brother that night I surrendered to something I couldn’t explain But when it was with me I was no longer in pain I wasn’t yet good But not all that bad I felt a new light Hope, I now had That first month was so awful Painful and sad But my kids filled me up With all the love that they had That force still remains With 8 years sober today It was not easy Once, I almost strayed The day she informed me what her father had done I wanted to pack up the shovel And get me a gun No daughter should ever Have to deliver that punch No daughter should ever Be a body to touch The rage filled my bones All I saw was red A lunatic quickly Consumed the thoughts in my head All the pain was too much Pleas stop! Go away! Then I heard my sobriety Whisper “please pray” There was no way to escape And no where to hide Fuck you alcoholism I won’t let you inside I screamed for this demon To just go away I transmuted the rage Into power that day I’ve been here before In my own youth, it’s true So why did I think I didn’t know what to do? I went back in time To my own situation What I needed then Was love and validation This pulled us together Rather than tear us apart As we each spoke our truth And we opened our hearts Together we healed We all took a stand No longer would our life Be run by that man That bond still continues And my daughters are grown They’ve found joy and love And have kids of their own Its not always easy But we have found a way As we remember Warriors were born on that day
4 year old little girl All dressed up so sweet With bows in my hair And shiny shoes on my feet She’ll do it all Watching Indiana Jones She dreamed about jungles And destinations unknown She wanted to travel To see all the sites Hike mountainside in the day Watching stars in the night She didn’t know She had limits in life To only be a pioneer Or be a mother and wife Then as she got older She started to learn beyond serving a man Ideas had to be burned She’s reminded what’s said In Genesis 2: starting verse 10 god considers women Just a helper to men Be mild and submissive how a lady should seem They serve men and god Foregoing their dreams Now lets all turn to Genesis 19:8 Where Lot offers his own daughters up to be raped Then onward to 1 Corinthians 11: 5 Teaches I should be grateful To men I’m alive Men are the teachers Women are not Get in you place Remember your spot Your ideas are useless Your thoughts are just dumb You nothing but a woman Under a man’s thumb They don't stop at Sundays Each day it was taught They successfully removed Any cognitive thought I began to conform to Biblical recommendation I kept myself small For the indoctrination Be a good woman Tender and sweet Serve Jehovah God A good man I will meet Don’t get too curious Don’t talk too loud Don’t be a gossip Don’t be too proud Cover your body Hair modestly done Don’t stumble a man Like Eve did on day one Don’t ever question Always listen to them They always know best since God speaks through men So came the day I was found all alone With a man who had intentions of his own I didn’t question or tell He made me unclean It didn’t feel good As I was only thirteen I blamed myself For the force of his hand I had new breasts My cleavage stumbled this man In my mind I had asked For this horrible fate Because I dressed sexy And agreed to the date I was 13 and him 23 For 30 years I hid What he’d done to me My spirit ran in that moment And it would leave for some time I started to rebel And act out of line My parents were flustered Didn’t know what to do My mother started noticing The bigger issue There was more to the story My eyes used to be bright But she saw internally I was ready to fight Where it was coming from She didn’t know But a force within her Said its time to go She started rebelling Right along with me The sexism and bullshit We started to see I stopped looking for a man in the congregation But I still couldn’t shake All the indoctrination So when I found him I was 14, and not strong He promised to love me And help me belong I didn’t see His controlling tone It looked so normal In this life I had known A good wife was quiet Submissive and sweet She’ll make you great meals And massage your feet As much as I fought Saying this isn’t me I really didn’t know Another way to be I was running on wisdom I knew was untrue But I just submitted Not knowing what else I could do At age 16 I married this man Not really knowing His true long term plan Abusive, neglectful Intimidating and mean He moved me far away So the treatment was unseen But he didn’t know The feisty girl locked in side Didn’t know what would hit him When she’d no longer hide She ripped through those vows Tearing them to shreds She blew up the marriage And fucked with his head She fought and rebelled Trying to push him away Doing everything she could So he wouldn’t stay But he wouldn’t let go Of this girl he possessed He fought back with vengeance So again she repressed But he didn’t know She had power untapped Her mother would fight A way out she had mapped You’ll cook and you’ll clean Don’t slack on one chore Be pleasant and loving Smile as he comes through the door Make him believe The marriage is something to save Tell him you really Want to learn to behave When I come to get you I will play along I will swallow my pride And for you I’ll be strong Once the car gets to moving And he’s in the rear view I want you to breath trust I’ll protect you When he gets into town Know your job is done Your step dad will meet him At the gate with his gun He has a few friends That may join in the fight These men may look rough But they treat women right The day he arrived I heard a loud sound It was the roar of motorcycles Gathering around And as my ex husband Pulled up to the gate I will never forget The fear on his face He became more compliant After that day When those kind badass bikers Scared him away.
I was 19 years old with 2 kids in tow My eyes full of tears knowing I had to go He’d shove me and push me careful not to bruise Held me down for his needs like a doll to be used “Where will you go?” He’d scream knowing i was trapped I wasn't allowed to hold money so my sources were capped Barefoot and pregnant is all that you’ll be A sorry piece of shit meant to serve only me Now clean up the house and make me a meal Keep going on and try not to feel I want a divorce I’d say voice cracking Go on, try to leave me go on, get to packing You’ll never survive you’ll live in a van Cause a woman can't live without a man Who’ll watch the kids as you make five bucks to my ten They will eat up your paycheck you’ll come running back then Im already pregnant with kid number three This one will come to give me a strength that I’ll need When she’s born I will get my tubes tied that same day I wont give him another chance to force me to stay Your too young says the doc you have to be 21 Remember, this procedure can not be undone. Will i ever be free? Its too painful to say But inside me arose a power that day When my daughter was born she had eyes that i knew One day he'd make me chose between him or you You made it so easy for me on that day I’d been worrying and wondering how id get away But you lay there so tiny not making a sound And with that I began forming my own solid ground I started to plan and acting so sweet Cooking him meals and rubbing his feet 6 months later I drove off I was finally done It was finally over i was finally gone I thought id be happy i thought it’d be fine Especially after a few glasses of wine I was not prepared for the road up ahead Nor the constant screaming of his voice in my head My bones would vibrate a low painful tone My thoughts were rapid never leaving me alone At the end of the day exhausted and torn A few drinks numbed the pain...an alcoholic was born
In this video I go over what shadow work is and what it looks like.
We all experience anger, sadness, fear, and other negative feelings; however, these emotions can be a result of proportionate and logical reasons. When these emotions feel like they originated from almost nowhere or are more powerful than their cause allows, this might be due to an emotional trigger. Mental health triggers depend on one’s personal experiences; therefore, there is an infinite list of things that trigger people. This article is meant to help you understand if you might have emotional triggers and, if so, how to deal with them.
Emotional triggers can be smells, sounds, people, objects, or memories that provoke extreme undesired feelings. This change in feelings can be sudden; in other cases, it will be more intense than the trigger would normally warrant. Emotional triggers can often be accompanied by :
Based on the symptoms the person experiences, they might have various types of emotional triggers. Emotional triggers include:
Identifying emotional triggers
This process takes a significant amount of time and soul searching. However, there are steps one can implement to make it easier to identify emotional triggers in life. Additionally, you may have many emotional triggers, but despite this, the important thing is identifying the trigger.
Managing emotional triggers
Realizing what triggers you psychologically is only the first step; escaping or avoiding trigger situations might be tricky. The following are a few strategies on how to go about your life while managing your emotional triggers:
Dealing with emotional triggers
The above strategies might not be long-term in managing your emotional triggers. You can meet triggers anywhere at any time, and band-aid solutions might be ineffective. The following are several long-term tips you can implement to deal with emotional triggers:
The bottom line is that learning to know and cope with your emotional triggers is not a day’s job. This might take a while, but constant efforts will pay off significantly for you as a person and in relationships. Unpleasant situations can trigger negative reactions in anyone; however, we can healthily manage triggers and navigate tension easily.
This video is speaking to the abandonment created by being cast our of the Jehovah’s Witness religion. I talk about the creation of it, and what the healing process looks like along with inspiring words from Alan Watts.
I talk about the 3 ways to spot a cult and how my experience set me up to be a victim of sexual abuse.
Simple exercise for spotting the root of triggers.
Tantric Shamanic Festival: Sol Y Luna
In these difficult times, you might have a yearning to connect with yourself or your partner on a deeper level. So, are you ready to explore this longing to understand your body or your partner’s emotional and physical intimacy?
You have probably heard of or attended numerous Tantric festivals, but have you attended the Sol Y Luna tantric Shamanic Festival? If you haven’t, this is an opportunity to see what mind and body transformations will be happening in April 2023 during Sol Y Luna. There will be the best facilitators (including ME!) ready and willing to offer you the most authentic, spiritually elevating mind and body healing experience. The following are among the activities you can expect from the Tantric Shamanic Festival: Sol Y Luna.
Retreat Experience with a Festival Vibe
The flow of experiences and activities are well thought out to create an alchemical and integrative journey where integration and embodiment of what has been experienced is our focus. We are inclusive to all polarities, including:
Multiple tantra teachers
The tantric shamanic festival, Sol Y Luna, has been organized by well-experienced tantra teachers, alchemists, shamans, entertainers and leaders whose sole purpose is to ensure you have the transformative experience you desire. All of us are completely focused on ensuring you go back home as a changed individual, spiritually lifted, and reaching the dimensions in your soul you never thought possible. Attending the Sol Y Luna is a special way of enjoying unique and different teaching techniques and understanding various approaches to tantra, shamanism and shadow work.
Every tantra workshop and festival is special in its own unique way; therefore, at Sol Y Luna tantric shamanic festival, expect to understand, feel, and see new things. The possibilities are truly infinite as you will experience love among your new brothers and sisters, sensual workshops opening your lower chakras, expansive workshops designed for enlightenment and spiritual awakenings, you name it. There are endless possibilities to these experiences.
Ecstatic Dance and music
One thing we can all agree on about music and dance is that they have a way of capturing our bodies, mind, and soul. The ecstatic dance you will experience in Sol Y Luna is nothing ordinary, and this could be dance where one person with more masculine energy will lead. The one with more feminine energy will follow the lead. Note that masculine and feminine are energies and have nothing to do with gender; therefore, either a man or woman can have any role. Music and dance are a great way to help you let go of your worries, stress, and anxieties in life, and it creates a safe space for you to socialize with others, learn and share your experience. You will have the chance to create invaluable memories with strangers, thus learning one of Tantra’s principles: everything in the universe has the same energy. So lets move our universal energy in dance!!
One of the most significant elements of a tantra festival is spiritual healing, which is among the major reasons individuals attend them. Sol Y Luna will focus on ensuring you experience authentic spiritual healing, helping you open up to like-minded individuals, sound baths, intentional touch, dancing like no one’s watching, eating amazing food, and vibing to great music can help in healing your divine.
A powerful energy
One unarguable feeling you can be certain to feel as soon as you attend the Tantric Shamanic Festival, Sol Y Luna, is a dynamic energy grounding with heart expansion. Tantra is significantly based on energies; therefore, expect nothing less when you attend the Sol Y Luna tantra festival led by the best and most highly skilled tantric shamanic teachers. If I were to describe that feeling, it feels like being wrapped up in a duvet of positive energy. This is when you can freely be yourself and dive into anything you want in the tantra festival.
Imagine a place where you can do anything you want, anything at all, with consent, of course. Somewhere that values your freedom of mind, too, this is among the experiences you can expect from the Sol Y Luna tantra festival. There are several basic rules to create a container of safety for everyone, but you can be yourself without apologies. Finally, a chance to let loose of all the bottled-up energy and the freedom to let your mind, body, and soul be in a symphony, feeling the music of your energy from inside out, is what being in sync with your higher self feels like.
The above are only a few of the amazing experiences you can expect from Sol Y Luna. Others include great performances, light and dark temple nights, cuddle party, just to mention a few. Come and experience the great tantra shamanic festival, whose sole aim is to guide you in all matters, including sexuality, yoga, sensuality, kundalini, divine art of touch, self-touch, and many more. I will be a facilitator at the upcomingTantric Shamanic Festival: Sol Y Luna in April 2023. I have a 10% discount code for tickets; the code is CASAUNDRA10; let us talk, and I’ll see you there.
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